Hello to All! I wish everyone a beautiful and Blessed day today. Im in Nashville, Tn and the weather is pretty hot today. Although this is one of the toughest season's of my life, my present circumstances, I have still been able to have some joy and peace. i don't have a place of my own. My 15 year old daughter is with me, and we are staying with a friend. My 20 year old son is staying wherever he can lay his head, because my friend wouldnt let him stay there due to conflicting personalities. My 18 year old is staying with my Dad. I am not employed right now, but Im looking for a job. It's hard for me to find a job nowadays. I have a IRS tax lein on my credit report, along with the bad credit. Many employers are performing consumer report checks for applicants. My furniture, and the few things that I have left that I own, are in a storage unit. The bad news is, If I dont pay the $360.00 by the 16th of this month, my things will be auctioned off. I am really trying so hard to get things done right. I am a recovering person and I attend NA meetings regularly. It's a blessing to be clean. I was working a full time job, but I voluntarily quit in April because I had to go to a treatment center. Insurance only paid for 17 days. I couldnt get my job back because I quit before my stated date on my 2 weeks notice. I was desperate for treatment, and it helped me dramatically! I enjoy going to the NA meetings. I have been going to church regularly too. My biggest problem is that I don't have anyone in my life that can help me financially. It's very frustrating. It seems very difficult to get my life going in what seems like a "normal" direction. I pray and depend on God, and He has indeed provided. I have been making it on a wing and a prayer. I am truly starting over, but I can't help but feel somewhat powerless and a little helpless sometimes. I would never tell my associates or close friends that I feel that way. I have such big dreams, things I wanna do, things I wish I could do for my kids. The main thing that I want for my kids is that they would all be living with me in a decent house or apartment. My 18 year old is in college and doing very well. My 20 year old is working on completing his GED. Although my boys are grown, We all still want to be a family unit again, because we were so close coming up. I want to go back to college and earn a degree. I would like to take either Psychology or get some sort of entertainment degree. There is a school I saw on the internet called FullSail University. I wish I could go there. I wish I could get my daughter into modeling, she has the most beautiful eyes, and the most beautiful SMILE ever! I love to sing and I wish I had a mentor that would show me the ropes of the entertainment biz. I would love to make a inspirational/gospel CD. I have a beautiful voice. My 20 year old is very handsome, and he could be a model. He just doesnt have a positive male role model in his life. My children and I are full of potential. Please everyone, pray for me, just call me Ora. Please pray for me and my children and that some if not all of our dreams will come true. I am ready to work for what we want and need.. I need a JOB!
